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Title to be read from right to left ... Thats as creative as i can get ...

Almost a month since i posted ... Been working like a mad wokaholic dog ... which is very unlike myself ... But then i have to do that at times ... if it involves good managers on the job ...

Was auditing this company ... lets call it X ... X has been by far the most pathetic company i've EVER witness and probably will EVER witness ... They have problems everywhere ... Issues everywhere ... I can just thank god the team was good ... and so the pressure was at least handle-able ... For the last 3 weeks ... we worked till at least 3 in the morning ... Best part is ... The supervisor would be around too ... working harder than we were ... that kinda gave us more reason to work ... Eventually ... we finished it ... waiting for the final review points now ... But i heard we were the first to submit a listed client financials ... Dont know if its right or wrong ... anyway ... The people at X were pretty good too ... at least most of them ... they knew we'd have problems ... and they were always around to help us out ... also planning a treat at emirates palace now :p ...

The next client ... (present client) is a very BIG client ... and prestigous too ... the team here however SUCKS! Not exactly the whole team ... but the head ... we've got such a professional atmosphere ... Its like we're under military control ... I so can't work that way ... I NEED to talk to people ... communicate ... this place is just so dry ... i usually end up chatting with the client :p ... Moreover, i dont have a lot of work ... its just the incharge piling up with additional work ... coz he cant seem to visualise me enjoying my personal life ... we keep having arguments ... i have to get the manager involved ... he's a super duper guy ... sorts out stuff ... gets me outta shit ... still keeps telling me how hard working i am :p ... so its all good ... problem is ... he's leaving soon enough ... and THAT is like cutting my backbone off ... coz all these people i've messed around with, are gonna come and get me :p ... Not like i'm scared ... but its just that this manager supports me when i'm right ... and doesnt give a shit to what the other people have to say if they are wrong ... and he trusts me a lot ... doesnt closely see what i'm doing or stuff ... coz he has this sort of trust built ... plus ... more than a professional relationship ... i have a friendly repo with him ... so it always works for me ...

Coming to the main points ...
a) I'm leavin for pak .. yes again
b) I'm quitting ...

a) I wanna get away from all this stuff ... this frigging environment ... this shitty place ... Wanna relax with my cousins ... spend some time with them ... enjoy ... come back ... and then quit :p ...
Yes .. its about time ... i've had enough ... i've fought for as long as i could ... and i think i've done alright ... i've given my best ... and people recognise that ... except for a few people ofcourse ... I've taken up stuff that people 2 levels above me would do and done them ... But i can't stress myself any further ... I NEED a break ... Need to relax for a bit ... Get my life straight ... Back on track ... Back to myself ... One and a half years ... But it doesnt end here ... I'm gonna get back ... Get back when im qualified inshAllah ... come back ... screw them coz then i'd be able to ... maybe ... But yeah ... its almost confimed ... I am leaving ... just waiting for the right time to strike ...

The anamnesis

I've got a lot of time on my hands so I'm writing a blog. Again!

Eids over. I was alone. Family isn't here. Friends were busy. This has to be one of the worst eids. All i did was either stare at my tele or the monitor. Thats all i did. Each moment i spent alone took me down memory lane. Yes I'm talking about her. I thought i was over it. But i was wrong. It can't happen so quick with me.

Everything I do, Everything someone says, Everytime i get a message - I'm reminded of her.
She is still alive in my thoughts. As much as she was the last time i missed her. Which is practically 0.01 seconds ago. Worst part is. For some reason. She has broken off all contact now. I don't get replies to the emails i send. My phone isn't answered. Its like she never existed. I just hope she is doing well.

I don't know how to help myself out of this. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it either. This is one of the many stupid things going wrong for me right now. I shall stick to writing one for now.