I've got nothing to write. This was just a post to show everyone i'm dedicated to writing a blog. I am i am i swear. I love this thing. It makes me feel complete. Its my life now.
Darn.
I'm so unimpressive
I need to start being creative
I need to become a little more serious
I need to mature a lot
I need to understand this world
I need to stop bothering people
I need to start writing well
Life kabhi kabhi bohat batameezi karti hai. :p
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
The 'Trauma'
Friday afternoon, 9th March.
Me and Saad planned to meet up at 'Classiqyat'. Our usual sheesha hangout spot.
I try calling Saad numerous times at 1.00 p.m. He doesn't answer. He calls back at 2.00 p.m. Something tragic has happened. PANIC. My body stopped functioning for a bit. But that wasn't helping anybody.
I rush to Dubai. One of the fastest drives to Dubai ever, yet it seemed so long. Because i wanted to be there with him then.
The trauma was yet to begin.
Initial info stated it would just take a couple of hours. It went on to the next day. And another day. And so on. Weeks and then about a month the trauma ended.
I wouldn't mention what happened. Its pointless.
But all of us learnt a lot of lessons from this. The hope article posted below relates a lot to me too. We realised our family was one (as we were always taught). Everyone played a vital role. Every uncle, aunt, cousin was a part of this. And that is what got everyone thru this. Hope, Prayers and belief in the almighty.
People compromised their differences - Differences for the past 20 years.
It just showed the principles laid down by our ancestors. The idea of belonging. The idea of togetherness. The idea of being one. The idea of being with each other in times of need.
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I was with Saad throughout all this. And it wasn't just one event. Everything seemed to go wrong. I admire Saad for keeping his cool. He has great temprament i must say. Throughout this one month; I have just seen him once out of his senses. He had stronger faith. I tried to play down everything on the face of it. At least pretended to be very cool with everything going on. I'm not sure as to how I did. But it was just to support everyone. One person breaks down. Shows how weak he is; Everyone weakens.
I learnt a lot from this event. Most major lesson being - the greatest happiness in life is to be a part of someones sorrow and take them thru to the end.
I hope our family always remains like this. I hope nothing ever hits our family. I hope everyone gets over this trauma asap. (Ameen)
Me and Saad planned to meet up at 'Classiqyat'. Our usual sheesha hangout spot.
I try calling Saad numerous times at 1.00 p.m. He doesn't answer. He calls back at 2.00 p.m. Something tragic has happened. PANIC. My body stopped functioning for a bit. But that wasn't helping anybody.
I rush to Dubai. One of the fastest drives to Dubai ever, yet it seemed so long. Because i wanted to be there with him then.
The trauma was yet to begin.
Initial info stated it would just take a couple of hours. It went on to the next day. And another day. And so on. Weeks and then about a month the trauma ended.
I wouldn't mention what happened. Its pointless.
But all of us learnt a lot of lessons from this. The hope article posted below relates a lot to me too. We realised our family was one (as we were always taught). Everyone played a vital role. Every uncle, aunt, cousin was a part of this. And that is what got everyone thru this. Hope, Prayers and belief in the almighty.
People compromised their differences - Differences for the past 20 years.
It just showed the principles laid down by our ancestors. The idea of belonging. The idea of togetherness. The idea of being one. The idea of being with each other in times of need.
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I was with Saad throughout all this. And it wasn't just one event. Everything seemed to go wrong. I admire Saad for keeping his cool. He has great temprament i must say. Throughout this one month; I have just seen him once out of his senses. He had stronger faith. I tried to play down everything on the face of it. At least pretended to be very cool with everything going on. I'm not sure as to how I did. But it was just to support everyone. One person breaks down. Shows how weak he is; Everyone weakens.
I learnt a lot from this event. Most major lesson being - the greatest happiness in life is to be a part of someones sorrow and take them thru to the end.
I hope our family always remains like this. I hope nothing ever hits our family. I hope everyone gets over this trauma asap. (Ameen)
Saads Blog ... Hope 101
I thought this just HAD to go here.
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In the light of recent events that have happened around me, I have realised some pivotal lessons of life. Never before has HOPE had more meaning to me, or I have seen it mean more to anyone than in the past days.
Alot of what we think is made of our own personality. The way we like to see things, may it be pesimistic or optimistic. It boils down to how we perceive things. In the same way, people we judge are all our own perception of the situation they are in. Alot of which is also relative to how ignorant or well informed we were about the situation. We think we know it all, but our conclusion is merely based on only what we know, even if that's not the complete truth or may be not even the complete lie.
And along these lines of positive perception, lies hope. An optimists love and a ray of light for the weakened. Hope is a strong player in times of distress and uncertainity. But how? It's factual evidence that has evolved some hope has'nt it. But that is because you perceive those facts to lead to something positive. Moreover, it exists because you require a better end result. In other words, because you want it.
I remember my teacher always said, 'IF' is the most useless word in the english dictionary. Coz everything that is about to happen rests on that 'IF'. To hope is kind of like 'IF'-ing, only you're not saying it, but your hoping it. It is just as hopeless. Heh, the irony of calling hope, being hopeless.
It's only natural to hope though, and almost all the times, its the only thing that shall make people go. Allah has asked us to hope for the best from HIM. Our hopes belong to HIM. But most of all, in times of any adversity, Allah reminds us that He will only push us to what we can handle. Also, whatever happens, happens by His decree and He does it for the better. That above all is the greatest Hope one can hold on to. The surest hope. And even when things dont turn right, you know that if you havent gone crazy yet, you can still take in more. What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger right?
Quote of the Day : Man is so weak, so brittle, so feeble. But that's all in his head. Its all psychological. Its all virtual.
Picked up from: http://ludaclassifieds.blogspot.com
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In the light of recent events that have happened around me, I have realised some pivotal lessons of life. Never before has HOPE had more meaning to me, or I have seen it mean more to anyone than in the past days.
Alot of what we think is made of our own personality. The way we like to see things, may it be pesimistic or optimistic. It boils down to how we perceive things. In the same way, people we judge are all our own perception of the situation they are in. Alot of which is also relative to how ignorant or well informed we were about the situation. We think we know it all, but our conclusion is merely based on only what we know, even if that's not the complete truth or may be not even the complete lie.
And along these lines of positive perception, lies hope. An optimists love and a ray of light for the weakened. Hope is a strong player in times of distress and uncertainity. But how? It's factual evidence that has evolved some hope has'nt it. But that is because you perceive those facts to lead to something positive. Moreover, it exists because you require a better end result. In other words, because you want it.
I remember my teacher always said, 'IF' is the most useless word in the english dictionary. Coz everything that is about to happen rests on that 'IF'. To hope is kind of like 'IF'-ing, only you're not saying it, but your hoping it. It is just as hopeless. Heh, the irony of calling hope, being hopeless.
It's only natural to hope though, and almost all the times, its the only thing that shall make people go. Allah has asked us to hope for the best from HIM. Our hopes belong to HIM. But most of all, in times of any adversity, Allah reminds us that He will only push us to what we can handle. Also, whatever happens, happens by His decree and He does it for the better. That above all is the greatest Hope one can hold on to. The surest hope. And even when things dont turn right, you know that if you havent gone crazy yet, you can still take in more. What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger right?
Quote of the Day : Man is so weak, so brittle, so feeble. But that's all in his head. Its all psychological. Its all virtual.
Picked up from: http://ludaclassifieds.blogspot.com
Friday, February 23, 2007
B&W
Black and White.
Exactly how I'm feeling right now.
As much as i'd not want to be classified as a pathetic loser. I'm beginning to join the league.
Nothing seems to be working the way I want it to. Or at least not working as they should be. Its all messed up.
X (sister(I'll call her that for anonymity)) has been upset with me for something i said. Maybe i shouldn't have. I got a little upset with something and flamed her. Something i've been doing quite often for sometime. She is an awesome person who lets go of it all the time. This time around though she wanted to teach me a lesson. Or so i think :p. Didn't talk to me for 2 days i guess. And i went paranoid during that time. Made me realise how much she meant to me. And how i just didn't really care. But as a matter of fact, she's literally made me. Got me out of sorrows and despair. Pays for my expenses everywhere. Listens to me whine all the time. Even though she isn't my blood sister, she does a better job than a blood sister would do.
Work sucks. As usual. I wouldn't elaborate.
Life is ok. Since X is talking now :p. Thats the brighter side of life.
Car is ok.
and what else?
Exactly how I'm feeling right now.
As much as i'd not want to be classified as a pathetic loser. I'm beginning to join the league.
Nothing seems to be working the way I want it to. Or at least not working as they should be. Its all messed up.
X (sister(I'll call her that for anonymity)) has been upset with me for something i said. Maybe i shouldn't have. I got a little upset with something and flamed her. Something i've been doing quite often for sometime. She is an awesome person who lets go of it all the time. This time around though she wanted to teach me a lesson. Or so i think :p. Didn't talk to me for 2 days i guess. And i went paranoid during that time. Made me realise how much she meant to me. And how i just didn't really care. But as a matter of fact, she's literally made me. Got me out of sorrows and despair. Pays for my expenses everywhere. Listens to me whine all the time. Even though she isn't my blood sister, she does a better job than a blood sister would do.
Work sucks. As usual. I wouldn't elaborate.
Life is ok. Since X is talking now :p. Thats the brighter side of life.
Car is ok.
and what else?
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Thalessmia Research and Treatment - Funds Needed
We (me and a few friends) wanna raise funds for thalessmia patients in the U.A.E. A friend of mine (who unfortunately is also a patient) has set up a research center and all the proceeds would be diverted to the agency to aid patients all over the U.A.E. If anyone has any ideas as to how to raise funds, please flood them in. I'd be more than happy to receive ideas. Moreover, if anybody is intrested in contributing on a personal level, please leave a message and i will get back to you with the details.
Thank You
Thank You
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
fles ytpme eht
Title to be read from right to left ... Thats as creative as i can get ...
Almost a month since i posted ... Been working like a mad wokaholic dog ... which is very unlike myself ... But then i have to do that at times ... if it involves good managers on the job ...
Was auditing this company ... lets call it X ... X has been by far the most pathetic company i've EVER witness and probably will EVER witness ... They have problems everywhere ... Issues everywhere ... I can just thank god the team was good ... and so the pressure was at least handle-able ... For the last 3 weeks ... we worked till at least 3 in the morning ... Best part is ... The supervisor would be around too ... working harder than we were ... that kinda gave us more reason to work ... Eventually ... we finished it ... waiting for the final review points now ... But i heard we were the first to submit a listed client financials ... Dont know if its right or wrong ... anyway ... The people at X were pretty good too ... at least most of them ... they knew we'd have problems ... and they were always around to help us out ... also planning a treat at emirates palace now :p ...
The next client ... (present client) is a very BIG client ... and prestigous too ... the team here however SUCKS! Not exactly the whole team ... but the head ... we've got such a professional atmosphere ... Its like we're under military control ... I so can't work that way ... I NEED to talk to people ... communicate ... this place is just so dry ... i usually end up chatting with the client :p ... Moreover, i dont have a lot of work ... its just the incharge piling up with additional work ... coz he cant seem to visualise me enjoying my personal life ... we keep having arguments ... i have to get the manager involved ... he's a super duper guy ... sorts out stuff ... gets me outta shit ... still keeps telling me how hard working i am :p ... so its all good ... problem is ... he's leaving soon enough ... and THAT is like cutting my backbone off ... coz all these people i've messed around with, are gonna come and get me :p ... Not like i'm scared ... but its just that this manager supports me when i'm right ... and doesnt give a shit to what the other people have to say if they are wrong ... and he trusts me a lot ... doesnt closely see what i'm doing or stuff ... coz he has this sort of trust built ... plus ... more than a professional relationship ... i have a friendly repo with him ... so it always works for me ...
Coming to the main points ...
a) I'm leavin for pak .. yes again
b) I'm quitting ...
a) I wanna get away from all this stuff ... this frigging environment ... this shitty place ... Wanna relax with my cousins ... spend some time with them ... enjoy ... come back ... and then quit :p ...
Yes .. its about time ... i've had enough ... i've fought for as long as i could ... and i think i've done alright ... i've given my best ... and people recognise that ... except for a few people ofcourse ... I've taken up stuff that people 2 levels above me would do and done them ... But i can't stress myself any further ... I NEED a break ... Need to relax for a bit ... Get my life straight ... Back on track ... Back to myself ... One and a half years ... But it doesnt end here ... I'm gonna get back ... Get back when im qualified inshAllah ... come back ... screw them coz then i'd be able to ... maybe ... But yeah ... its almost confimed ... I am leaving ... just waiting for the right time to strike ...
Almost a month since i posted ... Been working like a mad wokaholic dog ... which is very unlike myself ... But then i have to do that at times ... if it involves good managers on the job ...
Was auditing this company ... lets call it X ... X has been by far the most pathetic company i've EVER witness and probably will EVER witness ... They have problems everywhere ... Issues everywhere ... I can just thank god the team was good ... and so the pressure was at least handle-able ... For the last 3 weeks ... we worked till at least 3 in the morning ... Best part is ... The supervisor would be around too ... working harder than we were ... that kinda gave us more reason to work ... Eventually ... we finished it ... waiting for the final review points now ... But i heard we were the first to submit a listed client financials ... Dont know if its right or wrong ... anyway ... The people at X were pretty good too ... at least most of them ... they knew we'd have problems ... and they were always around to help us out ... also planning a treat at emirates palace now :p ...
The next client ... (present client) is a very BIG client ... and prestigous too ... the team here however SUCKS! Not exactly the whole team ... but the head ... we've got such a professional atmosphere ... Its like we're under military control ... I so can't work that way ... I NEED to talk to people ... communicate ... this place is just so dry ... i usually end up chatting with the client :p ... Moreover, i dont have a lot of work ... its just the incharge piling up with additional work ... coz he cant seem to visualise me enjoying my personal life ... we keep having arguments ... i have to get the manager involved ... he's a super duper guy ... sorts out stuff ... gets me outta shit ... still keeps telling me how hard working i am :p ... so its all good ... problem is ... he's leaving soon enough ... and THAT is like cutting my backbone off ... coz all these people i've messed around with, are gonna come and get me :p ... Not like i'm scared ... but its just that this manager supports me when i'm right ... and doesnt give a shit to what the other people have to say if they are wrong ... and he trusts me a lot ... doesnt closely see what i'm doing or stuff ... coz he has this sort of trust built ... plus ... more than a professional relationship ... i have a friendly repo with him ... so it always works for me ...
Coming to the main points ...
a) I'm leavin for pak .. yes again
b) I'm quitting ...
a) I wanna get away from all this stuff ... this frigging environment ... this shitty place ... Wanna relax with my cousins ... spend some time with them ... enjoy ... come back ... and then quit :p ...
Yes .. its about time ... i've had enough ... i've fought for as long as i could ... and i think i've done alright ... i've given my best ... and people recognise that ... except for a few people ofcourse ... I've taken up stuff that people 2 levels above me would do and done them ... But i can't stress myself any further ... I NEED a break ... Need to relax for a bit ... Get my life straight ... Back on track ... Back to myself ... One and a half years ... But it doesnt end here ... I'm gonna get back ... Get back when im qualified inshAllah ... come back ... screw them coz then i'd be able to ... maybe ... But yeah ... its almost confimed ... I am leaving ... just waiting for the right time to strike ...
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
The anamnesis
I've got a lot of time on my hands so I'm writing a blog. Again!
Eids over. I was alone. Family isn't here. Friends were busy. This has to be one of the worst eids. All i did was either stare at my tele or the monitor. Thats all i did. Each moment i spent alone took me down memory lane. Yes I'm talking about her. I thought i was over it. But i was wrong. It can't happen so quick with me.
Everything I do, Everything someone says, Everytime i get a message - I'm reminded of her.
She is still alive in my thoughts. As much as she was the last time i missed her. Which is practically 0.01 seconds ago. Worst part is. For some reason. She has broken off all contact now. I don't get replies to the emails i send. My phone isn't answered. Its like she never existed. I just hope she is doing well.
I don't know how to help myself out of this. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it either. This is one of the many stupid things going wrong for me right now. I shall stick to writing one for now.
Eids over. I was alone. Family isn't here. Friends were busy. This has to be one of the worst eids. All i did was either stare at my tele or the monitor. Thats all i did. Each moment i spent alone took me down memory lane. Yes I'm talking about her. I thought i was over it. But i was wrong. It can't happen so quick with me.
Everything I do, Everything someone says, Everytime i get a message - I'm reminded of her.
She is still alive in my thoughts. As much as she was the last time i missed her. Which is practically 0.01 seconds ago. Worst part is. For some reason. She has broken off all contact now. I don't get replies to the emails i send. My phone isn't answered. Its like she never existed. I just hope she is doing well.
I don't know how to help myself out of this. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it either. This is one of the many stupid things going wrong for me right now. I shall stick to writing one for now.
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