The anamnesis

I've got a lot of time on my hands so I'm writing a blog. Again!

Eids over. I was alone. Family isn't here. Friends were busy. This has to be one of the worst eids. All i did was either stare at my tele or the monitor. Thats all i did. Each moment i spent alone took me down memory lane. Yes I'm talking about her. I thought i was over it. But i was wrong. It can't happen so quick with me.

Everything I do, Everything someone says, Everytime i get a message - I'm reminded of her.
She is still alive in my thoughts. As much as she was the last time i missed her. Which is practically 0.01 seconds ago. Worst part is. For some reason. She has broken off all contact now. I don't get replies to the emails i send. My phone isn't answered. Its like she never existed. I just hope she is doing well.

I don't know how to help myself out of this. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it either. This is one of the many stupid things going wrong for me right now. I shall stick to writing one for now.